Confused enough to shut me up

I have SO MANY things on my mind right now... And most of them are slowly dragging me down.
I knew BMM would be time consuming, but this is insane! SO many projects, so little time.
What's worse?
This is only the beginning...

A few days back we performed in this restobar in R-City mall called Rainforest. Really good experience. We even got a contract because they liked us so much!
But we couldn't accept because of certain reasons which i'm too lazy to type about right now.

Why am I blogging when i should be completing one of the 4 1500 word essays for sociology?
The topics our teacher has given are interesting, but im just NOT able to get myself to start writing >.<

I signed up for the talent hunt for college. I got selected. But now, since im the only pianist/keyboardist in college who has come for the audition, I need to learn several other songs for my peers who need an accompanist. I couldn't say no. I mean, I really don't want to fall in to the category of being selfish or whatever... I dont know, I'm confused.

I have an audition tomorrow at 'Out of the Blue' near Carter Road. I want to get selected, but i dont think i'll be able to 'commit' to going there and playing every week for 1 and a half hours. I have LOADS of other work to do, and i am in no rush of earning my own money. I mean, there is a certain 'high' youget when you receive hard earned money, but I need to get my grades right first :P

Okay so next week are my 12th results. This will decide whether i continue in college or not. I'm confident i will though.

I can't believe I'M stressed out. ME. I don't think I've ever been this stressed out.
But its only a matter of time. Once my results are out, all will get decided on its own.


Nam Myoho Renge Kyo